Thursday, March 31, 2011

What's on the Menu?

Do you know what you are eating when you order off a menu at your favorite restaurant? 

Most of us don't think much about it.  We go to a restaurant, order what we want to eat and enjoy our meal.  Maybe we are being food concious, so we order and only eat 1/2 our meal.  Or...we order a salad. 

Would you believe me if I told you a salad at Applebee's is probably going to cost you over 800 calories!  Chicken Fajitas at the same restaurant will cost you over 1300 calories...even eating 1/2 is 650 calories and way too much for one meal! 

What do you do???

When you go to a restaurant, ask for a nutritional menu. Most restaurants now have them available or can print them.  I know for a fact that Applebee's, Macaroni Grill, Olive Garden, The Counter...all have nutritional menus.  And, if you don't want to ask, do your research before you go!

We had one of those days today where we were on the go from the time we walked out the door.  And, quite honestly, between taking one vehicle to get repaired, work, and shopping for a baby shower, I left the house at 730am and iddn't get back until 930pm.  So, we ate three meals out today and I still ate less than 1800 calories (with additional snacks that I brought with me!).

YOU HAVE TO PLAN! If you know you are going to be gone all day, take nuts and other purse type snacks for when you get hungry.  This will help you avoid making "hungry decisions" which are irrational and usually BAD!

And, in preparation for eating out, do your research.  Research if the restaurants have healthy alternatives, nutritional menus, etc.  If they do NOT have a nutritional menu, DO NOT EAT THERE!  If you do not know what you are eating, DO NOT EAT IT!

I know many will encourage a cheat day, I do not.  I do encourage a cheat meal, but I will discuss that in Sunday's blog.

Now...its time for my P90X update for today, Day 4.  I still love it, but could not do the workout today. It was Yoga which I love, but it was at too high a physical level.  So, we popped in another Yoga video.  We are going to use a beginners Yoga for weight loss DVD for the next few cycles of Yoga. This way we can stay on point. Again, sometimes we need to modify...as long as you try and you keep moving, that is what is important.

I will be honest in that I feel like I did not workout as vigorously as I would have liked today.  And, as a result I was pouty all day.  Apparently, I need my workout to be in a good mood. 

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What's at the Bottom of the Bag?

Food...Food...Food...

It has been my obsession for years.  But, it is interesting how the obsession has changed.  Understand that I have never truly gone hungry.  I just enjoy food.  I enjoy the smells, the tastes, the visual presentation.  That, in and of itself is fine.  Food has often been the center of family gatherings; something to be savored, enjoyed and lingered over.  This is also fine.

Food becomes a problem when it becomes some type of therapy, a very self destructive therapy.  Many of us learn to self sooth from an early age...even infancy.  This is normal!  But, we sometimes lose site of where self soothing stops and self destruction starts.  For me, "swinging on the fridgerator door" has always been comforting.  I eat when I'm happy. I eat when I'm sad.  I eat when I'm stressed.  I eat because I'm bored.  I just eat...and eat...and eat...and eat.  And, sometimes...I just can't stop. 

I have never been one to eat until I make myself sick, but I know I've come close a few times.

Even admitting this makes me sad.

There is nothing like the look in my husband's eyes as he watches me down a bag of M&Ms.  I'm not talking about the single serving...or even double serving bag.  I'm talking about the 1 lb bag.  Or the look in his eyes as I down an entire bag of Cheetos Cheese Puffs.  What?  They where the natural ones!  That makes it okay right??? The look is not one of disappointment.  It is not one of disaproval.  It is one of love, concern and confustion.  He didn't know what to do.  And God help him...he was loved me enough not to say anything! (Although, I suspect he was awful close to a full scale intervention.)

So, what was at the bottom of these bags? Shame.  I swear I would eat because I was depressed.  And then I would be so ashamed and disappointed in myself that I would just keep eating.  And Eating.  AND EATING!

So, I guess I have to admit that eating is a self destructive therapy for me.  And, as with any other challenge in my life, I have to choose not to be the victim.  I have to choose to control the food and not let it control me.

This is one of the reason's I think counting, measuring, weighing and tracking your food is so important.  You have to be honest when you do this.  The only person you are lying to by not being accurate is yourself.  By tracking your food, you know what you are eating.  By counting, weighing, measuring...you know how MUCH you are eating. 

With P90X I am allowing myself 1800 calories +/- 100 calories with working out.  And, I am minimizing salt, sugar and carbohydrate intake.  I am focused on taking in protein, vegetables and a small amount of fruit.  I plan all my meals.

Tonight I'm gettin crazy!  I'm not eating at home.  I am CRAVING breakfast food.  And, I'm not talking about pancakes, waffles or french toast.  I am craving eggs, turkey sausage and I want 1 piece of bacon!  One of my very good friends in Florida is a personal trainer and she taught me this is a great protein meal.  So...we are heading out to Cracker Barrell.  I've already researched the calories and loaded the information into my loseit.com app.

And...I had a great workout this morning.  Yes...I can't go without saying:  DAY 3 OF P90X! I was able to do all the exercises in the shoulder and arm workout and really enjoyed it.  I worked up a nice sweat too.  We did the ab workout which was a huge challenge and I couldn't do most of it.  So, if I couldn't do it...I just did crunches.  Let me say to all of you again:  just keep it moving. 

In closing, I encourage each of you who reads this diary of my journey to 40 to really consider your food choices.  Are you making good eating decisions?  Are you eating because you are hungry?  Or, are you staring at the bottom of the bag wondering how the hell did I get here?

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

P90 Day 2...Superstar

Rewind...

A couple of weeks ago, I started Shakeology.  This is a meal replacement protein shake that is FANTASTIC!  Not only is it yummy, but it is full of nutrients.  (Check out shakeology.com for more information.) I started using this item once a day to replace one meal.  For example, today I got short on time and used the shakeology as lunch with almond milk, peanut butter and frozen strawberry.  Shakeology is a Beachbody.com product like P90X.  It also comes with a 30 minute and 50 minute workout.  This is how I started my workout journey.  And, to be honest, it is a great workout for getting off your...couch.

I discovered quickly that I was very challenged with anything that required flexibility.  My muscles were tight even with stretching.  I am a huge fan of massage therapy and am now working with a massage therapist who specializes in deep tissue, myofascial, stretching and other theraputic massage techniques.  I think Ms. Y has made a huge impact on my ability to work out. 

When I saw Ms Y for the first time two weeks ago, I could not rotate my head much past 45 degrees from center.  I had limited flexibility in most of my joints.  When I left, after two hours, I could rotate my head past 90 degrees from center and felt bouncy!  I felt like I had worked out really hard and it did take me a few days to recover.

Fast forward....to today. Day 2 of P90X and I still very glad I decided to start this workout program. 

Today was a bit more challenging as the workout is Plyometrics which in 80's terms is Calisthenics.  This is a high intensity, high impact workout.  Although they did provide some modified options, I still had to make adjustments for my personal limitations.  But, I STILL DID IT! If I couldn't figure out how to adjust the exercise, I just kept moving.  I danced around, went side to side, marched in place...anything to keep my heart rate up.  I worked up a big sweat on this one.  It felt great! 

And, more importantly, I discovered something during the cool down.  As I was hanging, bent over at the waist, swinging my arms back and forth, I noticed the floor.  And, more accurately how close it was.  I can touch the floor with slightly bent knees.  I am only about an inch from touching with my feet together and legs straight.  THIS WAS SOMETHING I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO DO IN FOREVER!

I think the massage helped, and just the little bit of working out helped.  I will keep going because now I want to put my hands flat on the floor! 

My favorite exercise today was the Mary Katherine Lunge.  Yes...it is exactly what you are thinking from the SNL skit...I said "Superstar" everytime I lunged.  My sweet husband had the kindness in his heart not to laugh out loud at me.

Tomorrow is Day 3 and we will definately be up at 530am for a shoulder and arms workout.  And, God help me, I am looking forward to it. I am finding that anytime I am not active, I want to be moving.  Just standing talking to someone I want to bounce, move, sway... Just 2 days into P90X and I feel like a different person. I can't wait to see how I feel in 88 more days!

Monday, March 28, 2011

P90X...Day 1

I did it!  I completed Day 1 of the workout.  Today's workout was chest and back and it ROCKED!  It felt so good to use those long dormant muscles, and this workout particularly appealed to me.  I think my husband was a little suprised to see the Athlete in me come screaming to the surface, especially at 6am! 

Yes...I said 6am. (If my mother is reading this, someone needs to pick her up off the floor.)

Brian (the fabulous husband) and I talked about how best to proceed with my P90X training.  I thought: "I know I can just work out when I get home from work." The more we talked about it, the more I realized this was a BAD idea!

Albert Einstein defined Insanity as doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.  Would it really be different this time?  Would I really work out when I got home from work?  NO!  I would just fall into the same pattern of behavior!

To be effective in any lifestyle choice, you have to change your HABITS! So, we decided the best thing to do was get up together at 530am on work days (and by 730am on late or non work days) to workout.  And, we are doing it together.  This gives me the support I need, we can work together to encourage each other (Brian is on week 2 of P90X). And, IT IS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FROM MY NORMAL MODE OF OPERATION!

Change is good people.  Change your cycle, change your schedule. Be successful!

I would be remiss if I did not touch on the change in diet as well.  Adding exercise is great, but I also need to change my eating habits.  I have chosen to follow the P90X meal plan with only a few minor adjustments.  I am eating 5 protein servings, 2 or more vegetables, 1 high fiber carb serving, 3 snacks...and I am minimizing fat and trying to stay within 1800 calories.  And, I am drinking LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of water. 

Eating takes planning, if you fail to plan you should plan to fail.  I made lunches for the week on Sunday, pack my snacks the night before and literally feel like I take a suitcase of food with me to work.  But, it is healthy food! If I don't, I end up snacking at Starbuck's, eating McD or some other unhealthy choice. It's also important to keep it simple.  Less prep, less time, more likely to happen.

And, please use a food journal. I find it easiest to use an online food journal app through my IPhone.  My favorite is loseit.  You can access lose it through the app or online and you can allow others to view your tracker.  Please feel free to check out what I'm eating through the facebook loseit app: (http://www.facebook.com/loseitapp).

Speaking of food...it's time to start dinner.  We are having foreman grilled catfish seasoned with a chipotle pepper dry rub (no salt), over a bed of greans and topped with salsa.  Easy, tasty, healthy!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Lettin It ALL Hang Out!

Welcome to Part 1 of Lettin' it ALL Hang Out!  This will be my weekly log on Sundays of weight and at times measurements.  I am taking photos too, but may wait a bit to upload a photo journal of my progress.

When I mentioned that I planned to publish my weight and measurements, some people expressed concern.  I am doing this to admit, accept and move forward.  It is my way of creating a culture of accountability around my obesity. 

Yes, I said obesity. 

Over the years, I have lost control and moved past plump.  I have moved past chunky.  I am not just "a big girl", I am Obese.  I have often made self depricating jokes about my appearence, my weight...called myself fat.  But...I have never admitted that I am obsese.  I am not at my biggest, which is actually scary in hind site.  My biggest was a size 28 (tight) and almost 300 lbs. 

I am now a size 24 and as of this morning, I weigh 253.8 lbs.  The good news, is I am symetrical!

rt upper arm 14"
lt upper arm 14"
neck 16.5"
upper chest 44"
bust 50"
waist 45"
hip 60"
rt up thigh 30"
lt up thigh 29"
rt calf 16"
lt calf 16"

I have only just started this journey.  I have planned my meals for the next two days.  I am starting P90x tomorrow.  I know it will not be easy.  I know it will be hard.  But, I will make it.  I believe in me and I have wonderful support.

Here are my first goals:
1) Shop at Buckle by July (Gotta look HOT for the Poison/Crue concert)!
2) Break the 200lb barrier!
And, ultimately, I would like to be a svelt size 8, rocking out at 120lbs.  I want my 24" waist back! I want to be able to shop at any store I want to. 

I have 133.8 lbs to lose.  And, I am committed to losing this weight in 14 months, by my 40th Birthday.  That's 10lbs a month!  I can do that!!!!!

Join me on my journey, hang on...it's going to be a fun ride.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

The Cost of Getting Fit

Everyone always talks about how expensive it is to eat healthier and to get fit.  I think it's important to think about how much you save when getting healthy!  I was thinking about some of my choices over the last year. 

In 2010, I smoked an average of a pack of cigerettes a day.  At $5 x 365, that is $1825.  So, If you figure I smoked more sometimes and less sometimes...we can average that up to $2000 a year in cigerettes!

I love my Starbuck's.  And, my favorite is a Venti Sugar Free Breva Latte.  Breva is half and half and supposedly, this is the lower carb version for starbucks.  This is almost 600 calories a drink.  And...sometimes I had more than 1!  At a little less than $5 a drink...I just spent another $2000 at Starbuck's. 

So, the way I look at it, I just made a profit by quitting smoking and by cutting out Starbuck's.  Now, is it more more expensive to buy healthy alternatives in the grocery?  Yes...but it is worth it.  And, if you shop wisely, you can come pretty close on cost.  For example, when I shop at Whole Foods, I always review their specials, mailer and look for yellow tags.  Many times they have "per item" vs "per lb" in the meat section.  This is a great way to save money! 

And, if you are like me, I have a hard time buying in advance.  I just never know what I will have time to cook or what I will feel like cooking.  So, I have to be careful not to just buy food that I put in the fridgerator then throw away because we don't eat it.  Stock up on Turkey Burgers, Frozen Chicken, Vege Steamers to have on hand for quick dinners.  And, I am a huge fan of Khashi items.  Buy on sale!  Target frequently has specials on these items.

Part of my commitment in changing my diet does cost me.  I am using the Shakeology as a meal replacement either in the mornings or for dinner...and I may do it more than once a day if I need to.  Shakeology is $120 for a 30 day supply, $4 a serving.  No more than Starbuck's!  And, it is healthy, nutriet rich and fills me up.  I will share some of my favorite recipes as I go along.  So, for today, I will share my favorite breakfast!

I still need my coffee to get up and go.  So, my breakfast with Shakeology is 1 scoop chocolate Shakeology shake mix, 8 oz sugar free almond milk, 4 oz water, 1 via instant coffee from Starbuck's ( DO NOT GET THE FLAVORED VIA, THEY ARE VERY HIGH IN SUGAR), and a splash of vanilla or almond extract for a flavor kick.  I blend with ice and walk out the door!

In closing, there is a cost to getting fit...but there is also a savings associated.  Not just financial savings, but saving your life. 

Get fit, get healthy!  I will be fit, Fabulous and Flirty for Forty!

Friday, March 25, 2011

How the hell did I get here?

So...really, howe the hell did I get here? Almost 6 years ago, I had lost an amazing amount of weight, was down to a size 14 (from a 22) and felt great!  I was eating right, swimming and heading in the right direction.  I met a wonderful man (Brian) and we ultimately got married.

But, where did the weight come from?  Was it the relationship "freshmen 15"? Or, was I just eating too much?  It was a combination of things.  I have a thyroid that doesn't work, was working excessively, not eating right AND I had several major health issues that just packed on the weight. But where, do you cast the blame? 

I believe we have to take responsibility for ourselves.  I could easily blame the doctors, my health, my schedule...but it's MY RESPONSIBILITY.  I control what items move from my plate to my mouth and how much goes in. 

So, that is how I got there.  By eating, and not eating the right things.

So, I'm commiting to change.  I'm going to be fit, fabulous and flirty...for my 40ith birthday. I have 14 months. I will make it!

I will be blogging my progress, my thoughts...

Tomorrow's focus will be the cost of getting fit...or not.